mommy guilt

Do you ever feel like your a bad parent? I'm sure you do I'm sure we all do. Its not a good feeling. I'm always doubting myself, and even losing my temper. It seems like I've been losing it a lot lately. I've been told that "If you are a bad parent you would not be worried about being a bad parent," So I guess that's a good thing. I just HATE feeling that I've done something wrong or scarred them for life. As the kids get older it seems they are more determined to drive me completely nuts, from Morgan arguing about homework, to throwing a fit when I ask her to turn off her light if she's not in her room. Then from Logan acting totally out of control and embarrassing me by running around out of control in the grocery store to, cutting the sides of his hair right AFTER I took him for a hair cut. I know I know this is all normal, then why do I feel so out of control? At the end of the day I find myself apologizing for yelling or my short fuse, then praising them telling them "thank you for being such a good boy today I'm so proud of you." Usually both kids look at me like I'm insane and say "um we got busted today, or mommy you yelled at us today," and here I go again saying I know but that was just a small part of the day, when really it was HUGE chunk of the day. I go to bed feeling crappy and just wanting to go into their room and hug them telling them how much I love them. I'm sure I'm making it sound like I'm Mommy dearest, I know its not that bad. I just guess everyone has room for improvement. And I'm vowing to have more patience, and try to enjoy my kids a bit more everyday..

please don't say it outloud!

So Logan is at it again! I really do wonder where he comes up with these things, and I'm actually a little afraid for when he starts school.. What are his teachers going to think, Surely he's not getting this stuff from me!!
The other day we were getting ready to go out, Logan was looking pretty spiffy, Cute little slacks with a nice button down collar shirt. I'm tucking his shirt in and he just looks at me and says "mom, you just tickled my penis," as I'm about to say " oh I'm sorry buddy" he looks at me with a smile and Say's " and it felt good, actually it felt awesome" OK WHAT?! All I can think of is please don't say that out loud, I can just see CPS showing up at the door to question me!

our not so boring trip to the commissary!

OK so the last time I posted was about the "mystery smell" Thankfully there has not been anymore smells lurking around. But there are plenty of other entertaining stories..
School has started THANK GOD! I Thought I was going to have to admit myself to the loony bin for a while. Morgan is now in 2ND grade... How the heck did that happen? she is still my teeny little peanut and as spunky and sassy as ever, at least the eye rolls have stopped, or at least she has just found a way to do it without me seeing. I don't care as long as I don't see it then its not happening.
2 weeks after Morgan started school Logan FINALLY started back at preschool, now its only for 2 hours and 45 minutes a day, but let me tell you... It is the BEST 2 hours and 45 min EVER!! He is still my little how should I say, "trouble Maker."
I took him to the Commissary with me a few weeks ago, and of course it was anything but boring. He was being such a good boy, and big helper. However that did not last as long as I had hoped. Sure enough as were walking down the medicine Isle, he's walking beside the cart and I hear, " OWEEEEEEEEEE!!! MOMMMMMY" Sure enough he's got his entire hand stuck between the metal bars in the shopping cart. My first reaction was " really? why am I not surprised" so I actually just stood there for a few seconds just staring.. Now there are a lot of older people shopping at the commissary at this time, and this older woman sees Logan and takes off running down the isle saying I'll get the Vaseline." Then this other older woman walks by and yells for her husband who comes running down the isle to save the day.. Seriously I'm just laughing thinking to myself " wow this seems like last year when he got his head stuck in the car door window." Shortly after the man comes up Logan manages to turn his hand and pull it out, the woman with the Vaseline Say's "thank God" and pats Logan on the head!! The man gives Logan a high five and wishes me Luck.... He has no idea how much luck I need!

The Mystery Smell!!

Well for the past several days every time we get into the car when its closed up, there is a foul smell. I've looked everywhere trying to find the smell, thinking of course there is some sort of left over snack collecting mold and smelling up the mom mobile. After washing the car, vacuuming, even taking the seats out I found nothing. So I figured I'd just spray some air Freshener and be done with it.
A couple of days later while I stop to pick up Benny (one of our exchange students) to take him to school, He is sitting in the very back seat with the one and only Logan. Apparently Benny had a pretty good whiff of the smell and opened up one of the consoles that I seemed to have missed, and of course it is the one closest to Logan's chair. And there it is! the Mystery smell. Some sort of Juice and God knows what floating around along side of MOLD, Black or green, whatever it was just floating around what I'm guessing was Apple Juice, and by now pretty fermented. I decided it wasn't worth mentioning to Logan at that time because who knows how long its been in there, and by that time I can't really see the logic in scolding him for something he did weeks ago.. So I pour bleach, take a rag, and clean it out. ahhhhhhh the smell of clean.
That same day we get into the car to pick up the kids from school, first thing Logan does is open the console and yell " HEY MOM, SOMEONE STOLE MY POTION!"
NICE, THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS NICE!!

We should win a prize for this LMAO

Check out Logans face, seriously the FUNNIEST thing I've ever seen. We can not stop laughing at this.. funny thing is he LOVED this ride and asked if he could go on it again!

EYE ROLLS AND AIR QUOTES OH MY!

HOLY COW it has been a long time since I've blogged, But that does not mean nothing has been going on, it just means I've been so busy, or just plain lazy!
These past few months have been INTERESTING, FUN, STRESSFUL, and exciting! We took a family trip to the river for a few days of Jet Ski's and swimming. we took Madison with us and we all had a great time! funny thing is its 125 + out there, and your in the water ALL DAY and I didn't even get a freckle, then a few hours here at home at the beach, and I end up looking like a lobster. Either way we had a blast. The most AMAZING thing to happen in our family is hosting our Foreign exchange student Verena, she is from Austria and is staying with us for a month. WE LOVE HER! actually we love all of the kids that are here, we have been so busy, so tired but having the time of our lives. we can not wait to host again next year! Sadly they all have to go home next weekend, I know my kids are going to be devastated. Logan has been "cheeky" as Verena says, and I kind of like that instead of saying "bratty". it sounds way cuter.. And yes Logan has been CHEEKY! HOLY MO LY! he has also started using "air quotes" OK my first question is "WHERE DID HE LEARN AIR QUOTES?" The other day he actually looked at Joe held up his " air quotes" and said "dad your such a drama boy". Morgan has turned into a "DIVA" overnight, I'm not liking 7 so much, I guess its just a taste of what lies ahead. She has started doing the "eye roll" really? at 7? I was thinking more like 11 or 12 but no, at the age of 7 she knows EVERYTHING mom and dad are always wrong. I actually told her "if you roll your eyes at me one more time I'm going to knock your eye sockets out of your head" OK NO I WOULD NEVER DO THAT! but the eye roll EVERYDAY!
Tuesday we took Verena and kids to Knots Berry Farm, I told Morgan "hold on to my hand so you don't' get lost" she gives me A LOUD LONG SIGH on top of an EYE ROLL" OH Holy Hell!!!!
Speaking of Knots, we all went on the Log Ride, I have no words to describe it so I will just have to post a picture and you can see for yourselves! On that note I will attempt to blog more Often, Now I get to pick up dog poop, and mow the back yard! YAY ME!

and Just because we can't leave little Logan out, here he is enjoying a burger bigger then his face
well she wasn't 100% better but she got to ride it for a little while
Here is Morgan the Morning of her 7th birthday trying so hard NOT to be sick, she loved her new bike even tho she could not ride it for a few days

Here is a picture from our trip to the Animal park with Lexie, Notice Morgan is holding on to her leash.. Yea there is a reason for that.