Mommy Needs A Time Out"

Ok so its been a few days since my last post, but that is basically been because Logan has been making me nuts, and I really dont' want to write things that are not very nice.
Today was a hard day again, I don't understand the whining. I mean seriously, it seems to be getting worse EVERY SINGLE DAY! I think its a boy thing because I don't remember Morgan ever being this bad. Today I actually had to lock myself in my room for 30 sec with Logan pounding on my door, and Me yelling back " MOMMY NEEDS A TIME OUT" Actually the truth is Logan needs to go to preschool. You think I would have sent him a long time ago since I was a preschool teaher for 13 years Before I had kids. But #1 its soo expensive to send him, and with me not working its just not possible, and #2 99% of the schools in this area are all Christian based, and being Jewish, thats not a really good idea.
Thanks to my WONDERFUL friend Nicole, I actually got a little break today, she offered to take Logan to her house to play, AND pick up Morgan from school. She also gave me a number for a daycare that I can afford for 2 days a week. I do want to go back to work, but even tho my kids drive me mad at times, I just can't see them being raised by someone else. I feel so lucky and blessed to be able to stay home with my kids for as long as I have. YES we have had to sacrafice. We dont' take a lot of vacations, we don't drive fancy cars, BUT we do have a house, and the kids want for nothing. So the sacarafices we have made are small. I have not missed a moment of my kids lives. Now of course being a stay at home mom is NOT an easy job, sometimes you lose yourself, and may even need a xanex here and there. (oops did I say that out loud).